You know full well the reason and purpose I write today, though at this time, it is not fully clear to me.
You know each ‘yes’ and ‘no’ of days past.
You know the ‘no’ today, and the weight it carried. (Carries still.)
Only You know how many more to come.
You hold the length of days in Your hands. (Mine, and all the rest.)
Joy and acceptance stand on opposite shores, between which stands a raging sea.
But You are the Lord who calmed the wind and the waves.
You took a stroll on the waters as though it was simply a walk.
As I stand on the shore of acceptance, will You lead me to the shores of joy, and show me that the sea between is nothing if I walk with You?
Will You teach me to know the meaning of faith with hope?
With Your grace for Your glory.
They told me
The dreams they had so worried
I said one would live
But the other would die
I was forgotten in my chains
But there was something greater running through my veins
For no matter how many promises God has made, they are “Yes” in Christ. And so through him the “Amen” is spoken by us to the glory of God.
Now it is God who makes both us and you stand firm in Christ. He anointed us, set his seal of ownership on us, and put his Spirit in our hearts as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.
| 2 Corinthians 1:20-22
(Sorry, back-to-back notes. There’s much on my mind; I’m not sure where to start.
I shrink from answering your questions out of fear that I’ll say what I don’t mean.
Today was about laying down burdens to the One who can carry them.
The evidence of burdens entrusted is to walk away with joy.
You’re called to live, not to linger.
“…What is that to you? You — follow Me.”)
I can’t walk without watching where I’m going
I can’t speak without knowing what to say
I can’t love and have any hesitation
Cause I know that you don’t work that way
…I’m not gonna fight you anymore
Not gonna try to lock the door
You took your life and gave me yours
There’s no reason why
I shouldn’t trust you with mine
It’s never easy changing my direction
It’s so unnatural to loosen up my grip
Are you growing weary of all my good intentions
Cause I know that You don’t work that way
Somedays… This weight upon my shoulder
Is my shame
I know I should know better
Cause you say
That I must now surrender
There’s no other way
Then Job answered the Lord and said:
“I know that you can do all things,
and that no purpose of yours can be thwarted.
‘Who is this that hides counsel without knowledge?’
Therefore I have uttered what I did not understand,
things too wonderful for me, which I did not know.
‘Hear, and I will speak;
I will question you, and you make it known to me.’
I had heard of you by the hearing of the ear,
but now my eye sees you;
therefore I despise myself,
and repent in dust and ashes.”
Matthew Henry explains:
I have hidden counsel without knowledge. I have ignorantly overlooked the counsels and designs of God in afflicting me, and therefore have quarrelled with God, and insisted too much upon my own justification: Therefore I uttered that which I understood not,” that is, “I have passed a judgment upon the dispensations of Providence, though I was utterly a stranger to the reasons of them.”
“I have heard of thee by the hearing of the ear many a time from my teachers when I was young, from my friends now of late. I have known something of thy greatness, and power, and sovereign dominion; and yet was not brought, by what I heard, to submit myself to thee as I ought. The notions I had of these things served me only to talk of, and had not a due influence upon my mind. But now thou hast by immediate revelation discovered thyself to me in thy glorious majesty; now my eyes see thee; now I feel the power of those truths which before I had only the notion of, and therefore now I repent, and unsay what I have foolishly said.”
Note, (1.) It is a great mercy to have a good education, and to know the things of God by the instructions of his word and ministers. Faith comes by hearing, and then it is most likely to come when we hear attentively and with the hearing of the ear.
(2.) When the understanding is enlightened by the Spirit of grace our knowledge of divine things as far exceeds what we had before as that by ocular demonstration exceeds that by report and common fame. By the teachings of men God reveals his Son to us; but by the teachings of his Spirit he reveals his Son in us (Gal. 1:16), and so changes us into the same image, 2 Cor. 3:18.
Let us… make it our care, in the strength of his grace, to govern ourselves and our own hearts well.
(Who are You, truly?)
To know You and to love You.
To live without the burden of doubt because I live in the unchangeable surety of Your love.