Interim | THINK before you speak.

Until the time that his word came to pass,
The word of the LORD tested him.
| Psalm 105:19

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The Burning Heart

You know the saying, “Be careful what you wish for… You just might get it”?
Today was one of those days.
For clarity, direction… and BAM (!).

Our Father knows just how to answer us.
Not always easy to take.
But over time, I’m learning to recognize His Hand (and His work) sooner.

And to be more careful of how I respond.
‘THINK’ has been a helpful acronym to remind me to speak more thoughtfully…
Or to hold my tongue. (Came to mind tonight as well.)

Before you speak, THINK…
T – is it True?
H – is it Helpful?
I – is it Inspiring?
N – is it Necessary?
K – is it Kind?

(Still, perfectly on time.)


“When I am overcome by fears that I can’t see…
If everything is Yours… I’m letting it go. It was never mine to hold.”



Interim | The Waiting Room.

The waiting room:
Appointments, news, interviews… For yourself, for a friend, for a loved one. The most beautiful art on the wall and the best assortment of magazines can barely take the edge off the pain of anticipation.

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But then it comes.
Now what?

There is a purpose for the wait.
Note — it a ‘wait,’ not a ‘delay.’
A friend of mine shared once, “It may feel delayed in our time, but we know that in Yours, it is perfectly on time.”

Did we learn what we should in this season of waiting?
Are we ready for what comes next?

Call to mind those before us who waited. They waited with a Heavenly Hope.
Remember, the things that you wait for now do not compare to the joys of what Heaven will bring.

And should it come for you to leave the waiting room… Without what you were waiting for… Know that this is not the end.

Some things, we will only understand in Eternity.

Hebrews 11:13-16; 39-40
“These all died in faith, not having received the promises, but having seen them afar off were assured of them, embraced them and confessed that they were strangers and pilgrims on the earth.  For those who say such things declare plainly that they seek a homeland.  And truly if they had called to mind that country from which they had come out, they would have had opportunity to return.  But now they desire a better, that is, a heavenly country. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for He has prepared a city for them…

And all these, having obtained a good testimony through faith, did not receive the promise, God having provided something better for us, that they should not be made perfect apart from us.”


“…Who could ever know the depths of the mystery of your grace. Though our minds can’t take it in, Lord our hearts are filled with praise.”

Interim | Perfection. And higher.

[Higher than the highest human perfection]
“We must come to the end of ourselves…[and] live a life of simple dependence moment by moment on Him alone.

It is on the one hand, the easiest life to live because we do not need to climb up to some high attainment, but simply take Christ Himself as He meets us on the level of our nothingness and continually draw from Him grace and strength for all our needs, trials and triumphs.
On the other hand, it raises us infinitely higher than the highest human perfection, because its standard is not Adamic perfection, but Divine holiness.

It takes us in our nothingness, and gives us His fullness.” A.B.S.

Some thoughts for this evening…

Times when you feel as though your best is not enough. And your fear and worries can no longer be hidden.
The burden ever increasing, and your strength no longer adequate (was it ever adequate?)…

There is only one thing we can do.
Surrender to a sovereign God who created us, not so that we walk this road on our own, but that we should seek Him.

And in Him — through Him — find all we need to go on.

We didn’t make Him up. He made us.
Any emptiness that we feel can be filled with nothing else but Himself.

It’s true.
Try it.



Interim|Fernweh. And Heimweh.

Fernweh | A love of travel to far-off places. Wanderlust.

Heimweh | Homesickness.

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Which is it? Twenty-seven years of hearing about you, your people, your history, the plans for you.
The location where most of my childhood stories take place.

I have never seen you, but you feel more like home than anything else I’ve known.
The thought of seeing you, to realize that these are more than names, to make sense of all the stories — it brings me more joy than many things have in a long time.

To walk in the footsteps of those who have gone before me.
To have a glimpse of what they saw.

To touch, taste, see, hear, smell all of the things that I have only heard in stories.

The know the land, the people, and more of the God who chose you.
And that I, too, have a place in this.

To travel far, and to come home.

And how can I not love you?

An old song, but I love listening to the words.
Tonight, they resonate more than they ever have before.

Interim | Creatures of habit

I confess …
that the language of my lips and the feelings of my heart have not always agreed…
  that I have erred both on the side of my hopes  and also of my fears,
that I am unfit to choose for myself,  for it is not in me to direct my steps.

Valley of Visions

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As for you, son of man, your people are talking together about you…saying to each other, ‘Come and hear the message that has come from the Lord.’

My people come to you, as they usually do, and sit before you to hear your words,
but they do not put them into practice.

Their mouths speak of love, but their hearts are greedy for unjust gain. 

Indeed, to them you are nothing more than one who sings love songs with a beautiful voice and plays an instrument well,
for they hear your words but do not put them into practice.

| Ezekiel 34:30-32



(A week of indecisions (uncertainties) and fear. That hasn’t changed.
And yet Your purpose and guidance are ever present.
Ever a creature of habit, I scurried to the former pair.
Yet in Your faithfulness – for Your Name’s sake – You find me and put me on the path of Your plans.
Break me out of my habits. Out of comfort. Out of nature.
Set me on Your path. Lead. Guide. Reveal. Sustain.
It will be enough.)

The time of testing is over. You direct the next steps…
As You have in the past; As you still do.
Please give me faith to move beyond knowledge, to trust.